Tuesday, January 1, 2019

The Time Kids at the Park Made Me Cry.


Today I just couldn't bear to play another minute of princesses in the dollhouse so I suggested we go practice riding her bike. As soon as we rounded the corner and saw the park was full of people, she squealed with delight, "My friends! I'm so excited" and she quickly parked her bike next to all of the abandoned scooters and skateboards and made her way over to the first group of kids.

"Hi! I got a bike from Santa, it's over there!"
...nothing.

So she just joined in on their game of chase as happy as could be and they stopped and just stood there staring at her.

I called her over to play in another area where she found a boy a little younger than her and she introduced herself .

...nothing.

So she started telling his mom about how her birthday is coming up and she will be 3 and at her party she will have so many fun things to do.

...nothing.

Then the kids decided it was time to go home and they all ran to their bikes/scooters and decided whose house they were going to play at. Norah quickly ran to her bike and said "Me too! Me too!" and a girl about 7 gives her the dirtiest look and says, "Not you! Mom! Tell her not to come to my house!" and the mom. did. nothing. 

All I could do was tell her in front of them, "I'm so sorry. Sometimes people are rude and don't use their manners" and they just stared at me. I won't be surprised if I end up on the neighborhood Facebook page ::insert eye roll::

As they rode away Norah ran after them asking if she could come play too and when they were out of sight she sat on the curb and put her face in her hands.

My heart broke into a million pieces and I don't know if it's a mom thing or all of these pregnancy hormones surging through my body but I just started sobbing right there in the middle of the park. 
I quickly suggested we go home and paint (something I really didn't want to do but knew she would be excited about).

I cried all the way home and when she asked what was wrong I told her I had hurt my finger and she stopped to comfort me which made me cry more.

This tiny little being drives me crazy all day long and has more attitude than I thought possible but she is so kind and loving and just wants to be friends with everyone. All she wanted was to feel included and she was shut down and at that point I got a glimpse of how kids and parents alike can be rude and she is starting to get life lessons that I'm just not ready for.


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