Ever feel like you're the only person in the world who has an irrational fear or phobia?
Trust me, you're never alone. I found this out recently after quite a bit of research.
After reading ton's of websites I've found out that I have something called Emetophobia which is an intense, irrational fear or anxiety pertaining to vomiting.
I understand nobody loves it. It's never pleasant and is just gross but I take it to a whole new level. If I see, hear, know that someone one is sick I instantly get flu like symptoms and snap into panic mode.
People with emetophobia are triggered by the following (all of which I'm all too familiar with) :
- Their own vomiting
-Hearing someone else vomit (I've perfected the ear plug/noise cancelling hand movement)
-Hearing about an illness going around that includes vomiting ( Heard my mom was sick, I've been woozy and anxious all day)
-Watching a t.v show or movie where someone vomits
-A visit to the doctor
-A visit to the dentist
-Going to visit someone in the hospital
-Consuming food that you have an idea might make you sick ( Ask my family, I'm a hardcore expiration date checker and meat inspector)
-Fear of eating food someone else has prepared ( I rarely eat at a party or social gathering...potluck? Kill me now)
-Refusing to vomit when you feel ill ( I will sit in the bathroom for hours concentrating on not throwing up)
--Fear of children who are likely to vomit without much warning (If I hear a kid say their stomach hurts I want to bolt)
-Fear of being pregnant and experiencing morning sickness ( This is getting less and less scary because I want a baby so badly)
This is my life.
You have no idea the sense of relief I found knowing that I'm not alone! I could have written this list! I plan on taking further steps to help get over this hurdle because its getting kind of ridiculous. I've had this fear ever since I can remember and I don't know how I'll be able to have children without overcoming it.
Anyone else suffer from emetophobia? What do you/ have you done to regain a normal life?
I apologize for this gross post but sometimes it helps to get stuff like this out of your system...kinda like when you throw....oh nevermind.