It's been awhile since I've posted here so I thought I'd do a little update to summarize the beginning of 2015.
I finally got the diagnosis I'd been searching for since 2011. I had suspected something was wrong with my thyroid all this time because I was left to do all of my own research after way too many doctors and specialists couldn't help me.
It took a visit to an Infertility Specialist to tell me even though on paper my hormone levels were "normal", they were far from normal for me. He put me on medication for Hypothyroidism until I could see another Endocrinologist who confirmed my levels were very off and that I had Hashimotos Disease. Hashimotos is an autoimmune disease that causes your immune system to attack your thyroid like it would a virus.
I cannot even tell you the relief I felt. Finally! Someone took the time to listen to me and take what I was saying seriously. I've spent all these years thinking I was crazy. So many symptoms with no answers leading me to believe it was all in my head. I felt crazy and I felt selfish. Why couldn't I control this and why was I letting it take over my life? I felt so bad for Tim. He didn't sign up for this. I didn't want to be a depressed, anxious, hypochondriac wife.
Although the medicine will take time to start working and it may take awhile to find the right dosage I'm feeling hopeful. I've had a couple of bad days where I've felt worse than I ever did but after doing some research I found that can be normal. Today was one of those days and I've just been feeling so down.
It's nice to know that I'm not alone and to read stories of hope and healing. I found this blog post and it just sums up everything.